Height of laziness

I feel very sorry for not posting in one of the longest breaks. I have the lamest excuse to give, I was lazy. But I should tell that there was more to it. I did not feel motivated enough. After doing a very bad performance in last quarter (I got B in all 3 courses), I figured out that I have lost my focus and my motivation. Human mind plays tricks all the time to get you out of focus. Mine does a lot. Before the end of quarter I had decided to do a lot in this 1.5 month break time to cover my lost in the last quarter. But eventually I ended up passing my time on my laptop and movies and working on projects to earn money. I was so confused and frustrated thinking that I was wasting a lot of time. Finally I decided to take a full break from all my study and goal thinking. I just want to chill for a while without any worries of how I will reach my goals. I have decided that once my quarter starts I want to forget all worries and focus on my study real hard. I am already excited since I am going to start doing hand drawn animation and may be a character rigging class. I have also decided to manage my time well in next quarter to give enough time for my sweetheart and food (to be healthy enough to do all things). I am planning to post some of my work from the last quarter, but I dont have any work scanned or ready to post. Once I have them ready I will definitely post them.

More on failure

Success or Failure

Kumar made a very good and important point about failure.

Fear of failure

Why do we afraid of failure so much? It seems that one of the greatest fear on earth is the fear of failure. My drawing professors always say that do not be afraid to make mistakes. I totally understand it why. But sometimes I just can't help it but feel that fear for a while. I know that it does not help at all and by taking failure as a milestone for success I can become better. Life is really challenging this way; even if you know something is good or bad, you sometimes can't just do what you know you should do. It is very true that the person who can control his/her mind can do anything in this world.

My Fall quarter has started and there are lots of things happening. As usual the pressure of performing well has started to build up. I dont know if it is my own expectation or not. One more thing I realize is that we are afraid of what people would think about us or what impression would we make if we do something. Sometimes we really become conscious and concerned about our impression on others that we start feeling that fear, we start feeling the pressure. It lies in person's strength to take failure as a part of success, as a part of the journey and not the destination. This challenge will keep coming in one or the other form. I want to be free from thinking of my impression on others and my own expectations. I want to be fearless.

More drawings from sketchclub

Life & Partner

Life is really important and so is the partner one chooses to spend the entire life with. Life is about sharing and caring. To me life does not make sense if we do not share and care. Life partner or soul mate is the person to whom one opens up his/her heart fully. And that is when the power of sharing and caring grows more and more. That is why soul mate holds a very important place and role in life.

On 14th of August I got engaged to a sweet caring girl who is my best friend, my inspiration and my heart, Ami :)

Second Master Copy

This is one more master copy assignment, I don't have any details of the master artist but the work was really amazing. I am really happy with my final output in this assignment. I guess I am better with white charcoal on black paper than my skills with black on gray paper. This is actually huge, 36"x58". we did master copy on this big size to study all the details easily. I had to stick the paper to the wall to work on it. Photo quality is not good, there is a reflection on the bottom right corner :sigh:

Self portrait 1

Not completely happy with it, but still I was happy that I could get the likeliness. I chose a little odd pose. But since this was my first time drawing from mirror, I made some silly measuring mistakes. That's why some features look skewed.

Plater Cast Rendering

Third life drawing assignment, where we had to copy the plaster cast model to study head. I could not get the likeliness of the model really well, but still I enjoyed the rendering. His hair was a really painful task though. I also found that using white & black charcoal over a gray paper works really well and gives a wide range of values and possibilities for rendering.

First Drapery Study

First assignment of life drawing class. And I was really intimidated initially since I had never worked on drapery before and this was the first fine rendering project of the class. Anyway I realize that if I was less afraid of failing I could have done better.

Tales from Earthsea

It's a Ghibli movie, so despite getting not so good review I wanted to watch it desperately. And I finally did. Even though it could not create the same magic as the previous ghibli movies, I think the feel and style of the movie is the same. I love all the landscapes so much, and each background was like an amazing piece of art. The colors and compositions were really beautiful. I watched the movie again just to watch the landscapes. Really beautiful! Animation is again really nice and with so amazing details. I actually liked the story and concept behind the story. The story is actually adapted from the book with same title name. Soundtracks are mind blowing too. I love the main song (which Therru sings in the movie) so much. Somehow I felt that the soundtracks were mixtures of many different kinds. I also felt that music on violin was near to Indian feel at some points. Overall I loved the movie, especially I enjoy the artwork so much, it's breathtaking. The farm and house of Tenar was really beautiful. I wish to have a house and a farm like that.